I want to build the company up to be the biggest in Singapore. But I guess the first thing I need to do is to get my health up in order to meet the challenge. No use keep being sick, I need a healthy body to lead my team. I am really sick of being sick honestly. Thinking of going vegetarian, real vegetarian, no meat. Quite a tough choice as my favorite food is beef. I guess I will start jogging in the morning and evening. Have to force myself to exercise. I will MAKE it!

I will build it 1000 times stronger and 1000 times more beautiful!

I had setup companies, but I haven’t had the chance to setup a giant company. I guess it is my vision. In Singapore, the size is only 700 square kilometres. A lot of things you can never imagine. I still need some recuperation but I think this time round I am going to build a huge company, at least the largest in Singapore if not in Asia. With the support given, I think I can do it. I feel I can do it and I will do it. It won’t be easy work, but at least as long as I am committed I believe I do stand a chance. God give me strength!

Happy Vesak Day to all Buddhists in Singapore. I am really proud of my country, a small 700 square kilometres country where all religions and races live in peace and harmony with each other and celebrates each other’s festivals. Vesak Day is actually celebrated on the First Full Moon of May, the 15th day of the Fourth Month on the Lunar Calender. Also known as Buddha’s Birthday, it actually celebrates the birth, enlightenment Nirvana, and passing (Parinirvana) of Gautama Buddha. Some of my Buddhist friends go to a ceremony known as “三步一拜”, to thank the Lord Buddha or to pray for something.

Vesak Day in Thailand 1927

Time has diluted a lot of our traditions and cultures as well as a lot of our festivals. I am glad that Vesak Day has retained its meaning in Modern Day Singapore society and hope that the such spirit continue to flourish generations after generations. May Singapore society be of peace and harmony among all races and religions.

I just can’t get my health back in order after all those long periods of exhaustion. No choice but to see the doctor. There wasn’t any one jab and you will be alright thingy. But extended medication and rest recommended. I guess this time round I will follow doctor’s advice, been sick too long and just can’t get back to health no matter what I tried. Final straw just when I was at a meeting, everything seems blank in my mind, had to concentrate very hard to get my thoughts back. Quite scary. Too used to working my way out of problems, having such tendencies that no matter what, if I set my mind and my heart into something, I can solve it. This time round doesn’t seem to work. I think I abuse my body too much and really need a regular routine and slowly nurse myself back to health.

My chest pains aren’t improving. I had been steadily recovering until that massive job doing the migration. After this, no matter how hard I try, my health is still quite bad. I guess I need my place at Man Fatt Temple soon

It is high time for me to initiate legal actions. Had spent months collecting evidence and also spend tons of money on Private Investigators. I think I know more about my adversaries than they know themselves. Health is getting better but slowly, still more than enough to start using my legal credentials. One thing I never put out anywhere is my legal qualifications, once you put these out, everyone will be asking you for legal advice free. This time round the law suit will take a long time and involved a lot of money. But I am well prepared.

Starting to walk to office, trying not to take taxis, substituting taxis for walking. No golf, I don’t want anyone to use me as an excuse, saying that they are playing with golf with me when they are out doing other things. Had enough of such troubles. Still having panic attacks. But I believe the best cure is in yourself. Exercise hard, try to relax, try to plan ahead. I do not believe I can’t control the panic attacks.

1. 欲做精金美玉的人品，定从烈火中煅来；思立掀天揭地的事功，须向薄冰上履过。
2. 一念错，便觉百行皆非，防之当如渡海浮囊，勿容一针之罅漏；万善全，始得一生无愧。修之当如凌云宝树，须假众木以撑持。
3. 忙处事为，常向闲中先检点，过举自稀。动时念想，预从静里密操持，非心自息。
4. 为善而欲自高胜人，施恩而欲要名结好，修业而欲惊世骇俗，植节而欲标异见奇，此皆是善念中戈矛，理路上荆棘，最易夹带，最难拔除者也。须是涤尽渣滓，斩绝萌芽，才见本来真体。
. 5能轻富贵，不能轻一轻富贵之心；能重名义，又复重一重名义之念。是事境之尘氛未扫，而心境之芥蒂未忘。此处拔除不净，恐石去而草复生矣。
6. 纷扰固溺志之场，而枯寂亦槁心之地。故学者当栖心元默，以宁吾真体。亦当适志恬愉，以养吾圆机。
7. 昨日之非不可留，留之则根烬复萌，而尘情终累乎理趣；今日之是不可执，执之则渣滓未化，而理趣反转为欲根。
8. 无事便思有闲杂念想否。有事便思有粗浮意气否。得意便思有骄矜辞色否。失意便思有怨望情怀否。时时检点，到得从多入少、从有入无处，才是学问的真消息。
9. 士人有百折不回之真心，才有万变不穷之妙用。
10. 立业建功，事事要从实地着脚，若少慕声闻，便成伪果；讲道修德，念念要从虚处立基，若稍计功效，便落尘情。
11. 身不宜忙，而忙于闲暇之时，亦可儆惕惰气；心不可放，而放于收摄之后，亦可鼓畅天机。
12. 钟鼓体虚，为声闻而招击撞；麋鹿性逸，因豢养而受羁縻。可见名为招祸之本，欲乃散志之媒。学者不可不力为扫除也。
13. 一念常惺，才避去神弓鬼矢；纤尘不染，方解开地网天罗。
14. 一点不忍的念头，是生民生物之根芽；一段不为的气节，是撑天撑地之柱石。故君子于一虫一蚁不忍伤残，一缕一丝勿容贪冒，便可为万物立命、天地立心矣。
15. 拨开世上尘氛，胸中自无火炎冰竞；消却心中鄙吝，眼前时有月到风来。
16. 学者动静殊操、喧寂异趣，还是锻炼未熟，心神混淆故耳。须是操存涵养，定云止水中，有鸢飞鱼跃的景象；风狂雨骤处，有波恬浪静的风光，才见处一化齐之妙。
17. 心是一颗明珠。以物欲障蔽之，犹明珠而混以泥沙，其洗涤犹易；以情识衬贴之，犹明珠而饰以银黄，其洗涤最难。故学者不患垢病，而患洁病之难治；不畏事障，而畏理障之难除。
18. 躯壳的我要看得破，则万有皆空而其心常虚，虚则义理来居；性命的我要认得真，则万理皆备而其心常实，实则物欲不入。
19. 面上扫开十层甲，眉目才无可憎；胸中涤去数斗尘，语言方觉有味。
20. 完得心上之本来，方可言了心；尽得世间之常道，才堪论出世。
21. 我果为洪炉大冶，何患顽金钝铁之不可陶熔。我果为巨海长江，何患横流污渎之不能容纳。
22. 白日欺人，难逃清夜之愧赧；红颜失志，空贻皓首之悲伤。
23. 以积货财之心积学问，以求功名之念求道德，以爱妻子之心爱父母，以保爵位之策保国家，出此入彼，念虑只差毫末，而超凡入圣，人品且判星渊矣。人胡猛然转念哉！
24. 立百福之基，只在一念慈祥；开万善之门，无如寸心挹损。
25. 塞得物欲之路，才堪辟道义之门；驰得尘俗之肩，方可挑圣贤之担。
26. 容得性情上偏私，便是一大学问；消得家庭内嫌雪，才为火内栽莲。
27. 事理因人言而悟者，有悟还有迷，总不如自悟之了了；意兴从外境而得者，有得还有失，总不如自得之休休。
28. 情之同处即为性，舍情则性不可见，欲之公处即为理，舍欲则理不可明。故君子不能灭情，惟事平情而已；不能绝欲，惟期寡欲而已。
29. 欲遇变而无仓忙，须向常时念念守得定；欲临死而无贪恋，须向生时事事看得轻。
30. 一念过差，足丧生平之善；终身检饬，难盖一事之愆。
31. 从五更枕席上参勘心体，气未动，情未萌，才见本来面目；向三时饮食中谙练世味，浓不欣，淡不厌，方为切实工夫。

千里修书只为墙，
让他三尺又何妨。
万里长城今犹在，
不见当年秦始皇。